Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Depressed

I'm in the throes of a pretty severe depression these days so I've been doing little but knitting. Money is too tight for me to be able to afford the meds I need to treat the depression, so for now I'm just having to muddle through. M doesn't understand it, of course. And I am glad, in a way... the only way he could understand it is if he had gone through it himself. And I wouldn't wish clinical depression on anyone. Even myself. And these days I seem to hate myself. 

 Anyway, sorry for the extended absence here, I will attempt to write more frequently.  I'm working diligently on  my Christmas knitting. I need 6 pieces for females in my family and 5 for men. Plus stuff for a baby boy. Thus far I have an almost finished baby blanket, 2 hat and scarf/wrap sets for women, a hood for a man, and a scarf-in-progress for a man. I have most if not all of the yarn I'll need for these projects and I'm a little excited about giving my family things I've made. This is my first Christmas to attempt making things for everyone, so I'm also a little apprehensive.  We'll see how it goes.

2 comments:

Randy said...

You should really check out the meds for depression. You can get (with a prescription) the generic versions of several antidepressants at Walmart for $4.00 for a 30 day supply. I have suffered from depression most of my life and the meds are a life saver for me.

Eve said...

I appreciate that, Randy. I was previously taking fluoxetine and it did help, but I currently have no insurance and we just can't afford to go to a doctor. When money is a little less tight I am planning to order it online. I wouldn't do that for anything that hadn't already been prescribed to me, but in this case it seems like the only feasible option. I really do appreciate your concern and suggestion.